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Letter from Queen Victoria to Leopold I, King of Belgium:
“My own dearest, kindest Father,— For as such have I ever loved you! The poor fatherless baby of eight months is now the utterly broken-hearted and crushed widow of forty-two! My life as a happy one is ended! the world is gone for me! If I must live on (and I will do nothing to make me worse than I am), it is henceforth for our poor fatherless children-for my unhappy country, which has lost all in losing him-and in only doing what I know and feel he would wish, for he is near me—his spirit will guide and inspire me! But oh! to be cut off in the prime of life—to see our pure, happy, quiet, domestic life, which alone enabled me to bear my much disliked position, cut off at forty-two—when I had hoped with such instinctive certainty that God never would part us, and would let us grow old together (though he always talked of the shortness of life)—is too awful, too cruel! And yet it must be for his good, his happiness! His purity was too great, his aspiration too high for this poor, miserable world! His great soul is now only enjoying that for which it was worthy! And I will not envy him-only pray that mine may be perfected by it and fit to be with him eternally, for which blessed moment I earnestly long. Dearest, dearest Uncle, how kind of you to come! It will be an unspeakable comfort, and you can do much to tell people to do what they ought to do. As for my own good, personal servants—-poor Phipps in particular—nothing can be more devoted, heartbroken as they are, and anxious only to live as he wished! Good Alice has been and is wonderful. The 26th will suit me perfectly. Ever your devoted, wretched Child, Victoria R”
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© Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II 2012 © Bodleian Libraries © ProQuest
Her words of sorrow are so descriptive. My heart breaks for her as I read this.